Closure

This weekend I visited the cabin up Ogden canyon where I was staying just prior to the stroke. It was the spot I was last normal. It haunts me like a ghost of life past. I never actually verbalized my inner conflict, because I was trying to remain in denial as long as possible at the time. (Sometimes you gotta use denial for self preservation!) However, the thought was always hovering in the back of my mind, even though I was welcomed with many with open arms.

Certain sights brought back memory vignettes of the days preceding my big change almost a year ago. Picture the ballfield, spotted with family playing softball. (With my mad skills, I got a hit everytime!) There’s the corner of the yard where the night before we watched (an old family favorite) John Wayne movie outside. (Popcorn included.) I recall scrumptious meals as we all gathered together to laugh and associate. And right before, (all those who opted out of river tubing) rambunctiously played cards with the necessary drinks and snacks. All was right with the world. We were encircled by trees and the babbling water. In the company of seldom seen extended family, we shared stories, memories, and experiences. Always laughing, we enjoyed the careless serenity of the crisp outdoors.

This was the scene from a normal life that would soon come crashing down, not just for me, but all associated with me. (Kablam!) 

It’s amazing to think of one event (like a stroke) rippling out to deeply effect so many. It just goes to show you it’s expedient to live your life to the fullest now and every day after. You never know what tomorrow will bring. (Seriously, you just don’t know!) How would I have lived those final normal days? What would I have done to prepare? I feel like I was in the right place, with family.

Here’s my unsolicited, but well-earned advice: Turn off the TV or put down the phone, and give your precious time to the people you love.

The cabin will always hold treasured memories for me. (Sorry, I was responsible for ruining a wonderful family weekend. It certainly wasn’t on purpose.) But instead of dwelling on the sadness this event caused many, I will focus on the good times. I will pull aside the veil of disappointment and desperation, and I will strive to only remember the happiness and joyful times. That’s my goal. (Wish me luck!)

Walkin’ on Sunshine – 5/30/17

I took Monday, Memorial Day, off from writing to give my family all my attention. I stayed at home Sunday night. We had a campfire under the stars, and many sunny walks. Oodles of fun were had. (I need a rest.) We spent exceptional quality time together. It was a wonderful long weekend!

The song I selected for the today is Walkin’ on Sunshine by Katrina & the Waves. (I think they were one hit wonders.) This song is a timeless classic. It makes me happy. I used to love to sing along. The bouncy rhythm and accelerated pace make it electrifying. The thought of even walking, but walking on sunshine is the personification of summer and feeling great. As summer and warmer days get into full swing, it’s time to cut loose. (And loose, I will cut!)  After being cooped up since August, I am anticpating (more than ever before) fun days, warm rays, and starry nights. Brighter days are awaiting me! “And don’t it feel good!”

Love is True Fun

Love Challenge – Love is True Fun. 

If you’ve heard a child pray (I used to be in Primary) a key element in the prayer is “bless that we have fun.” Without a doubt its always there! But I say “fun” isn’t what society thinks it is. It is not games, candy and toys or a fancy phone. “True fun” is spending time with family (without the arguments), sitting around a campfire playing name that movie eating s’mores, good consequences to good decisions, or seeing all your kids and their spouses and grandkids (someday.) Your definition might be a bit different, but you get the idea. Fun is definitely kindness and service to those in need, and a compliment to make someone’s day. I want to have fun like that!